The Moment of Truth - Triplets Reveals!!! ;)

Hello,
After visits with Dr Aida (Anson Bay Medical Center) i still feel unsatisfied. So i drive far to Hospital Pantai, Manjung for scan wit Dr Chandran. Very friendly Doctor, funny (he have beautiful yet funny laugh). We really like him.

DR CHANDRAN SINNASAMY

HOSPITAL PANTAI, MANJUNG, PERAK

Okay, he scan me and said :
DR: ''So, u have 1st here, 2nd here, and third here''.
ME: ''Wait!! what??!! DR u mean triplets??!!''.
DR: ''Yes 100% sure''.
ME:'' no way!! no wayyy!!!!! ''

*while lookin at my husband n my husband also looking at me with the biggest eyes ever*
(I feel wanna collapses, feel the overwhelming of confusing feeling)

WAW! WAW! What else can i say. Theres 3 babies inside me?
Is this the feeling of having triplets?
HAHAHAHA!! All i can do is laughing!

I understand that triplets brings so much risk. Risk for themselves and me!!
I confused, should i feel sad or should i feel happy?

We had MCD breakfast before meet Dr Chandran

His kisses mean so much for me... (I need to force him actually HAHAHAHAHA)

EMBRYO TRANSFER 3RD IVF

Hello again!!

This is face one day after OPU! Ovarian Pick-Up

A month after OPU, they scheduled me for Embryo Transfer on 12/06/2017.

I remember how excited I was that time. U know putting 'babies' inside me and it will grow.

I didn't give 100% hope to this IVF. I know it might fail again as before. This time what I was  thinking - 'whatever', no stress too much about it and don't expect anything
.

Dr Prasant did show the 2 embryos to my husband in a 2nd room. He noted that both looks okay. I know its not perfect.. but whatever.... This time we have at least 5 day embryos - blastocysts - which even if low quality, have much higher chances to implant, compare to 3 day embryos. 

Hello there tiny creatures!

My husband looks like DR with this uniform. He looks cute. 

I don't like how I look like here..without makeup I look sick! ;)

After OPU will starting the torture part of 2 weeks waiting!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we bought lot of pregnancy tests...

IVF / ICSI 3 2017

My Triplets Journey Part 2

Hello there!
Sorry if it took so long to post the successful part. Im quite busy running around for millions scans.

Well, did my 3rd IVF/ICSI with Dr Prashant Nadkarni at KL Fertility Center.
He is simple, quiet and fast thinking person. No jokes were made during the 1st visits. Its feel quite awkward if compare to other O&G Dr. In my heart saying "i hope he doing good job even-tho not so friendly". U know some Dr full of empty talk, looks sweet but result ZERO!

1st visit was January 2017. That time i still having light bleeding from previous IVF DR Tham.
So he advised me to take pills to stop bleeding. So he want to see me on my next period  (Day 2). But he not available. So they ask me to come for next period which fall on  07/02/17 Tuesday 2 pm.

So he start me short antagonist protocol. First injection GONAL F 150 iu. Continue taking everyday and DAY 10 i start injection ORGALUTRAN on 08/03/17 - to prevent ovulation and allow follicles to grow optima size.
I completed the cycle with SUPREFACT (buserelin) at 10 pm (exactly 36 hours before OPU)

OPU done on 16.03.2017.
I was under propofol sedation.
Never expect i could dissapear from the room. Last time i saw they injecting me with 10 mls white liquid Propofol but until 5mls im 'gone'. Open my eyes feels dizzy, feel light, feel happy and i ask the nurse there.
ME: ''are they still doing the OPU?''
NURSE: ''Oh madam finished already''
ME: ''what? so fast ahh?? i just close my eyes?!!
NURSE: ''No madam it already 30 minutes ago, u take rest okay. Once u feel better can go back''. *with sweetest smile*

And i turn right saw my hubby. Smiling there. Starting take my photo n laughing. Calling me high. hahahaha!!

My blood pressure was low too..

1ST & 2ND IVF/ICSI

MY TRIPLETS JOURNEY PART 1

I have been trying to conceive for quite a long time. 5 years? yeah!
I'm 26 years old. Never pregnant before.
I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome ) & left fallopian tube blockage. I did HSG ( Hysterosalpingogram ) twice, but with the same result.. It was the WORST PAIN ever!! They gave me some painkiller, but nah it wasn't working.
Altogether did IVF treatment 3 times! Spent almost RM 60 K!!!!

Last year 2016 :

1st I start with Dr Aida from Anson Bay Medical Centre, Teluk Intan, Perak. Ovulation induction - 12 cycles with  clomiphine 100 - 150 mg per day. FAILED! Feel very dissapointed... So she suggested me go to meet Dr Tham for IVF treatment.


1st IVF done with Dr Tham, Sunfert Fertility Centre, Ipoh.
FAILED! 2nd IVF FAILED TOO!
Almost RM 30K spend.

This is a patients file from Sunfert! I always love this.. imagine my daughter could look like her.. Very good marketing strategies ahh u bastard! hehe..




25/03/2016 - 1ST IVF
OPU (Ovarian Pick - Up)        : D15
DR THAM - IPOH

I remember how the first IVF gives me so much hopes. Collected 18 eggs. Unfortunately, during OPU my husbands sperm count was ZERO due to some infection and they didn't freeze previous sample, as all look OK before. So, all the eggs needed  to be  discarded! They didn't have some special liquid to freeze these eggs!! RM 15K HANGUS!!!

I suggest u guys to make sure those clinic have this liquid to freeze egg before done ur IVF. Or check your sperm prior ET and let it freeze as backup in case on the OPU day something like this happen.

02/08/2016 - 2ND IVF
OPU (Ovarian Pick - Up)       : D15

05/08/2016
ET (EMBRYO TRANSFER) : D18


Okay, the 2nd IVF same stories. FAILED!
But this time, collected 11 eggs.
After 2 months treating my husbands with a strong antibiotics for prostatitis infection, but it was working and it started improving!!
Even Dr Tham said my husband is a Robin Hood now soon will be Superman! LOL! Thanks God it was temporarily problem and it did improved.

During the 1st embryos transfer, I pray so hard so my babies could stuck n grow there.. 2 Embryo transferred.
After 1 week+ I did UPT - result negative. After so many test (15 maybe) I accepted the failure.

Then, 3 months later 2nd transfer with 2 embryos, after a week UPT NEGATIVE! ;'(

Even tho, the sperms making progress, but the embryos didn't look good. Our embryologists stated that 4 embryos were medium fragmented.

11 EGGS - D3
- 9 Fertilized normally
- 4 Embryos Highly Fragmented : Discarded
- 5 Embryos ( Divided ) - 7 cell & 8 cell  ( 2 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE B
                                         - 8 cell & 6 cell  ( 2 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE B
                                         - 7 cell                ( 1 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE C

- The last one they keep till D5, became a blastocyst, but of a very bad quality so it was discarded.

                                           

                                                                                 
                                                   

1ST & 2ND Post - IVF / ICSI Depression

So sad, giving up !! DEPRESSED!

Im mad at myself! Mad at GOD! Im dysfunctional so why created me? In this female body, but with problems. The only thought i had that time is all against me.
I cried alone. The pressure I have from my family, friends n working place.


'' Oh how? positive? ",
'' Why cant u pregnant?? ''
'' What problems u have? ''
'' You or your husband having problems ?''
'' U pregnant already or not? '' x100


OH SHUT THE FUCK UP PEOPLE!! SHUT UP!!




At working place ( Since im a nurse working in busy ward )

'' How long ur holiday gonna be? ''
'' We dont have enough staff ''
'' Someone not happy with ur leave ''




WHAT THE FUCK WITH U GUYS!! IM ONGOING IVF TREATMENT OFCOZ ILL HAVE UNEXPECTED LEAVE/EMERGENCY LEAVE!!




I understand that time I was too depressed. For the first timer handling such situation.
After long thought, I met my Matron (Big Boss) inform her that I wanted to move to different ward. O & G, some relaxing ward - currently that time in Orthopaedic male ward. Carrying patient most of the time. CRAZY!

After few months, received letter from office I got transfer to O&G ward! yuhuuuu!! As expected, less work, n more relaxing. Just sometimes I am busy, but not busy by carrying patients. That's enough..



All I have is my husbands support. Without him I did already give up on this treatment.
Takes time for me to heal.

Steam Fish

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