1ST & 2ND IVF/ICSI

MY TRIPLETS JOURNEY PART 1

I have been trying to conceive for quite a long time. 5 years? yeah!
I'm 26 years old. Never pregnant before.
I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome ) & left fallopian tube blockage. I did HSG ( Hysterosalpingogram ) twice, but with the same result.. It was the WORST PAIN ever!! They gave me some painkiller, but nah it wasn't working.
Altogether did IVF treatment 3 times! Spent almost RM 60 K!!!!

Last year 2016 :

1st I start with Dr Aida from Anson Bay Medical Centre, Teluk Intan, Perak. Ovulation induction - 12 cycles with  clomiphine 100 - 150 mg per day. FAILED! Feel very dissapointed... So she suggested me go to meet Dr Tham for IVF treatment.


1st IVF done with Dr Tham, Sunfert Fertility Centre, Ipoh.
FAILED! 2nd IVF FAILED TOO!
Almost RM 30K spend.


This is a patients file from Sunfert! I always love this.. imagine my daughter could look like her.. Very good marketing strategies ahh u bastard! hehe..




25/03/2016 - 1ST IVF
OPU (Ovarian Pick - Up)        : D15
DR THAM - IPOH

I remember how the first IVF gives me so much hopes. Collected 18 eggs. Unfortunately, during OPU my husbands sperm count was ZERO due to some infection and they didn't freeze previous sample, as all look OK before. So, all the eggs needed  to be  discarded! They didn't have some special liquid to freeze these eggs!! RM 15K HANGUS!!!

I suggest u guys to make sure those clinic have this liquid to freeze egg before done ur IVF. Or check your sperm prior ET and let it freeze as backup in case on the OPU day something like this happen.

This the 1st egg collection without embrios
























02/08/2016 - 2ND IVF
OPU (Ovarian Pick - Up)       : D15

05/08/2016
ET (EMBRYO TRANSFER) : D18


Okay, the 2nd IVF same stories. FAILED!
But this time, collected 11 eggs.
After 2 months treating my husbands with a strong antibiotics for prostatitis infection, but it was working and it started improving!!
Even Dr Tham said my husband is a Robin Hood now soon will be Superman! LOL! Thanks God it was temporarily problem and it did improved.

During the 1st embryos transfer, I pray so hard so my babies could stuck n grow there.. 2 Embryo transferred.
After 1 week+ I did UPT - result negative. After so many test (15 maybe) I accepted the failure.

Then, 3 months later 2nd transfer with 2 embryos, after a week UPT NEGATIVE! ;'(






Even tho, the sperms making progress, but the embryos didn't look good. Our embryologists stated that 4 embryos were medium fragmented.

11 EGGS - D3
- 9 Fertilized normally
- 4 Embryos Highly Fragmented : Discarded
- 5 Embryos ( Divided ) - 7 cell & 8 cell  ( 2 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE B
                                         - 8 cell & 6 cell  ( 2 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE B
                                         - 7 cell                ( 1 embryos ) 15% Fragmented   GRADE C

- The last one they keep till D5, became a blastocyst, but of a very bad quality so it was discarded.


                                           

                                                                                 
                                                   







1ST & 2ND Post - IVF / ICSI Depression

So sad, giving up !! DEPRESSED!





Im mad at myself! Mad at GOD! Im dysfunctional so why created me? In this female body, but with problems. The only thought i had that time is all against me.
I cried alone. The pressure I have from my family, friends n working place.


'' Oh how? positive? ",
'' Why cant u pregnant?? ''
'' What problems u have? ''
'' You or your husband having problems ?''
'' U pregnant already or not? '' x100


OH SHUT THE FUCK UP PEOPLE!! SHUT UP!!




At working place ( Since im a nurse working in busy ward )

'' How long ur holiday gonna be? ''
'' We dont have enough staff ''
'' Someone not happy with ur leave ''




WHAT THE FUCK WITH U GUYS!! IM ONGOING IVF TREATMENT OFCOZ ILL HAVE UNEXPECTED LEAVE/EMERGENCY LEAVE!!




I understand that time I was too depressed. For the first timer handling such situation.
After long thought, I met my Matron (Big Boss) inform her that I wanted to move to different ward. O & G, some relaxing ward - currently that time in Orthopaedic male ward. Carrying patient most of the time. CRAZY!

After few months, received letter from office I got transfer to O&G ward! yuhuuuu!! As expected, less work, n more relaxing. Just sometimes I am busy, but not busy by carrying patients. That's enough..



All I have is my husbands support. Without him I did already give up on this treatment.
Takes time for me to heal.